Church Girls

We are the church girls
and this is our world.
We sit
we listen
we pretend
we care.
But none of us really knows
why we are there.
Until one day
we wake up and say
"We are the church girls
so what does that mean?
We are the church girls,
I'm so sick of this scene."
We walk out
fully aware
of the presence
we left there.
And for a while it's cool
for awhile it's good.
The church girls no longer
even though we should.
But then things start changing
then things start getting hard.
We scream up at God
and wonder why we fell so far.
"I used to be a church girl
I used to have it figured out.
Now I'm just a lost girl.
That's all I know without a doubt."
And pretty soon we forget
what church girl used to mean.
We're at the end of our rope
Don't remember how to dream.
Until one day
we wake up and say,
"I'm still God's girl.
I haven't forgotten that.
And even though I'm screwed up
I'm getting myself back."
And we walk back in,
Church girls no longer.
Instead we're God's girls
But we know what it means to wander.
So this is to all those church girls
who never wondered why.
And when the going got tough
all they could do was cry.
You are more than a church girl.
More than a pretty face.
You are God's girl
and no one can take your place.

My stomach is sick and my head is crystal clear

So cliche
and so storybook fairy tale
that I'm wondering if it was ever real
and why was your heart so pale?

This is where you learn
to stand and fight
and protect what is yours
before it becomes out of sight.

I don't want to be ashamed
of who I was yesterday
and I don't want to be afraid
of who I'll be tomorrow.
So can you please help me find it?
Help me find who I am
and who I'll be
for the rest of eternity?

The phone keeps ringing
inside my head
and I don't answer it
hoping I'll hear your voice instead.

So imperfect
my flaws are laid out
for the world to see.
Can they carry my doubt?

I don't want to be ashamed
of who I was yesterday
and I don't want to be afraid
of who I'll be tomorrow.
So can you please help me find it?
Help me find who I am
and who I'll be
for the rest of eternity?

'Breaking hearts
has never looked so cool.'
Did you watch and see
how I got taken for a fool?

I'm finally getting some order back
turn around, and watch for me.
Don't forget
who I'll never be.

If you don't want to speak,
don't want to speak to me
I'll love you anyway.

If you don't want to listen,
don't want to listen to this
I'll keep talking anyway.

Because you can't remember
that day in late September
when you came back,
came back to me.

And everything I'd lost
had suddenly become found
and everything I was fighting for
finally became sound.

And if you don't want to be here,
don't want to be here in this place
I'll stay for you anyway.

And if you don't want to try,
to try and keep on living
I'll live for the both of us.

Because you can't remember
that day in late September
when you came back,
came back to me.

And everything I'd lost
had suddenly become found
and everything I was fighting for
finally turned around.