if my heart cracked, would You leak out?

It's like a constant renewal.
God, sometimes I wonder
how on earth do you put up with me?
It's moments like those
that You sit me down in a corner with rain
stare me in the face
and say nothing.
You just hold me.
Just exactly the way I need it.
Sometimes my heart feels like it's going to explode
because it's so full
of You.
I don't understand.
Maybe I never will.
Maybe that's the way it should be.
"I won't give up
on giving You
a chance to blow my mind."
My words are inadequate
and I'm sorry that I have nothing greater to give.
But what I do have,
I'll give it up.
Everything.
God, You know.
I love You more than anything else.
May that never change.